Chapter 5:
“Good Morning” my talking machine... “How are you?”… “Hey buddy…I need good news from you today…like you did last time”…you must be wondering to whom I was talking in this early morning. Well I was buttering my phone. You know it was hard days for him too. He might need vacations like I do. The first thing I think in the morning is not what I have to do today or what not to do? or what to study and what not to study?...if mom will scream at me or not?...or mom will serve me tea or coffee..The first thing which runs down into my mind is the awesome runner….’Sheena’ . But today the thing is not her face which I was reminding but I was curious to know the answer of my Cinderella.
I got a call from solanki to bring notes of some fluid mechanics. I assure him like a borrower who took a large loan and will surely pay him on time but today I have different plans. I thought to bunk my all the classes of my college and wait for my angel’s call. I know my head of department will scream in the class like gorilla that “if I really want to be a good engineer or not” but I thought is better to be a good lover rather than to become a bad engineer. At least, I will get placed in my sweetheart’s heart and to get placed in a good company is like to find a needle in quick sand. So I called solanki once again and told him that I will be not coming today and he replied “Bloody devdas, HOD sir will kick your ass for sure and you will forget all the love you have in your heart. And I just replied him “Brother, will you also join me to the club”…he replied “huh, Fuck you man!!”…. and I just replied ...“hahahahaha”….I think I was not in my senses on that day the happiness she gave me last night ,I know it is still doubt full but at least it has some hope. I saw a movie called ‘the shawshank redemption’ the motive of the movie and the best dialogue I ever listen and which was appropriate in my present condition was this “Hope is the good thing…may be the best of the things and no good thing ever dies”….these are the golden words and which I always follow.
I went for a bath...Took breakfast…wore my amazing uniform which always looks so tacky and told my mother that I will be late and gave a reason in support that may be our sir would be taking extra class. I kicked my bike and went to pool club and searched for someone to accompany me till I get the call from the best girl of my life. But you know after Sheena, the one I praise a lot are my friends. It was my good luck that my friend ankit Sharma just called me up “hey rohit…how are you man?!!”…I replied “fine bro”… “Very fine”…. “How you doing?”....he replied “bro!! I am back in town and looking forward to meet you”…I replied “what...you are in the town in your mid semester”.... “yeah!! Brother…a tragedy occurred and I got to discuss with you urgently”…I replied “well brother I am there at pool club and you know where it is right?” he replied “yes bro I know? …but brother I want to meet you alone and talk for while”…I replied “I am all alone brother?”…he replied “huh you are at pool club all alone”… “Are you fine?”….I want to say brother I am all fine and…I am just flying :D….but I replied “yeah,I am fine now…and don’t waste time bro , come to the club as soon as possible”….he replied “in 5 minutes” beep beep beep…
I know ankit Sharma’s 5 mins…at least an hour…as he always used to get ready before going out to meet anyone like girls do. So he came after his well known ankit’s 5 minutes hour as he entered we shook hands. So I asked him what is the matter?...he started “brother, I got suspended as I had beaten my hostel guard after drinking 9 pegs of royal stag whiskey?...I exclaimed “what the fuck,man 9 pegs”.. “yeah, and I told my parents that I came back as rohit’s sister is getting married and he is alone so I got to help him”…so I really got to meet you and tell you this so that you don’t spit in front of my mother”….I replied with a combination of anger and humor “great bro, you are awesome”….he asked me “why did you say this?”…. “Man!! Firstly after 9 pegs you beat the guard at the hostel is pretty unbelievable .secondly “what a stupid reason you gave your mother is big add on”:P….we both laughed then...
Well but he is not the only one who is passing with the tragedy. So he asked me “how come you are here at the pool club alone?”….his question was straight but to answer him straight will make me to tell him about sheena .so I thought that I should cut if off as if to escape from policeman when they try to stop you at the chaurahas for cutting your chalans(fine).so I replied him “nothing like that bro,it’s just I want to go to college and my friend wanted to attend so I bunked the classes alone”…he found it an awkward reason and I could truly feel it by seeing each and every expression of his face. It was like ordering a pastry and the shopkeeper asking that do you prefer hot or cold and you can see the expression on the buyer’s face :\ …..but as he is really a good friend of mine…he judged me…he said…something going in your mind…if you don’t want to tell its okie…but I know something fishy in your acts…I replied…”brother!! Fine I will tell you everything just wait for today…I will definitely share about the stuff…he said “okie!! Brother…never mind”….that is the greatest quality he has ,i.e.,to understand the things and circumstances…I hope this habit might get transferred to her too…so that she understand…what I carry for her…what I have in my mind and what I have in my heart….my soul is nothing without the love she gave to me….the affection I have for her….I was getting tensed and nervous the hope and expectation she created in my life...making it more sensitive…I was thinking…all this…next moment ankit shoot me “hey man!! Where you lost?”…..I said “sorry man!! Let have some sutta…I thought that smoking will kill my negative thoughts…and moreover, kill the time…till the time I wait for the call from my dreamgirl…
So ankit and me went out…and asked for 2 cigarettes to panwala bhaiya….panwala bhaiya replied “bhaiya aajkal aate nahi aap”(sir you don’t come often here)…he was seeing in eagerness …I replied “bhaiya…now you will be seeing me often may be from tomorrow.or .You will not find me here” . I said to myself “may be you find me here only” :’(…well sheena’s call was like a call from god now…by listening my words…ankit curiosity took the highest level…like he might get a leaked exam paper from me…. “Something happened really serious with you”….he exclaimed. I was quite and did not say a word.
We had some smoke and a light conversation about the school time about our physics teacher “sardar” to whom we call ‘popa’ and also discussed about the slaps of our mathematics teacher mrs.archana….oh god second name of…evil...also discussed about our chemistry teacher udita…..who was really hot…and amazed to know that she won the title of mrs.india…ankit added... “bhai she really had that spark…trust me”….and we both laughed on this gag….
Time passed…it was 2 pm now…he said “man!! Are you going to spend all day over here”…I replied “you want to go man then you are free to go”….ankit made a face like that of the girl which give glance like when boyfriend ask for a breakoff…...he replied “don’t get annoyed brother I am with you”…now I was thinking how to get rid of him…as I wanted to attend her call alone. I said very calmly like that of telesales which replies always in a smooth behavior like “sir never mind I will give you call later..thank you”….so I said him “hey brother nothing intentional…its okie bro I have some work…I will catch you tomorrow and tell you the story which you are eager to know”…he smiled and took leave…
I sat over the stairs of my pool club…took a cigarette..and smoking…I know many girls…who are my readers might not liking this…I am sorry but…smoking acts like an adhesive to a broken heart…
My phone started ringing and the display showed my mom’s number… i think mom usually called me this time…for the usual enquiry about me that where I am…and when I will be back…I thought for a while and hit the red button…man!! I said to myself what you did…asshole…you hit the red button….it’s your mom idiot….i got panicked as I never did this…sheena was making me doing all this…waiting for her call made me more impatient now…. Thank god mom didn’t called me once again…mom might thought I am there in the class…and never know…I am a devdas ….
Hmmm waiting and waiting…..smoking and smoking….and here it goes…tring tring tring…my god just called me up….the rings of my mobile phone sounding sweeter then the bells of the Christmas…I picked up her call “hey sheena…how’s you I am glad to receive your call”…she replied “I will call you in 5 minutes”…beep beep beep…I said to myself “fuck”….this act of her made me think more and more now….she left me so nervous now…she made me so helpless now…now negative thoughts start punching my brain and very badly.
1) Why she did this?
2) Is it NO?
3) She is doing some drama I think OR…?
4) She loves me I know that OR….?
5) She respects my feelings for her OR…?
6) Did her parents love will overcome my love?
7) She just called me to say the same thing that we should be friends only
8) She called me up to say ‘yes’ to shweta?
9) She called me up to say forget me?
A big Postive and only reaction…which overcoming all my questions was that…
“I love you rohit”…awesome :D
I think her clock ‘s 5 mins were equal to 50 mins as she had not called me yet and half an hour was already over…
After 50th minute got over.my Christmas arrived once again…I prayed for second and received her call…so here I go…I am going to describe our conversation along with simultaneous thoughts that were running inside my mind.
Sheena:hello!! (she was looking so normal and smooth…indication: there is something fishy in her mind…not good for me)
Me:hi!!... (normal to show…that nothing happening it was a just a simple conversation)
Sheena:Hows you? (I think she was just practicing her basics of conversation with me)
Me:I am fine sheena (fake smile…but I can’t let her know…that I am going mad for her)
Sheena:so? (Behaving like this is our usual talk)
Me :So you got to tell me something isn’t it?(I erupted like a volcano…u know…my condition was like a rolling egg….which could break any moment)
Sheena:yeah!! Really is there something special? (she was sounding naughty…it was good indication as per my side…as being naughty means something light…but she was killing me…if she is really playing a game)
Me:Come on sheena!! You know what I am talking about? (It’s looking like I am saying…I beg you…please say…don’t be so mean)
Sheena:I have no idea?(idea…I want to make abhishek bachan to say lines for me that ‘Get idea’ .)
Me:If you are kidding with me or you really forgot about the last night?(well I ask her straight)
Sheena:you didn’t went to your college today? You don’t have class today?(she asked a very ridiculous question at this moment…she was cutting our current point…and I was hating her for this…why is she doing this with me?...i was not liking it)
Me:yaar…what is happening with you?...i bunked my classes…will you please tell me now about your decision?(my condition was now BLANK)
Sheena:you bunked your classes….my god?...i dont like any irresponsible guy….and never expect from you to do this…you are my….(she stopped…while saying the next word…it was like running your bike with 100km per hour speed…and by next moment you find a red traffic signal )
Me:I am sorry?(I said as I want to listen the next word at which she stopped….she thought I said sorry as I bunked classes :P )
Sheena: Its okie…but please never do this…please..(she was really calm and sweet…looking so cute…man!! Lovely girl really)
Me:you said “never expect from you to do this…you are my….”…you are my what????.... :O (my expectation, my curiosity and my ears listening power was now at the highest volume)
Sheena:Boyfriend!!! She smiled (her smile made me realize that all the buds of my life just turned into flower)
Me:you are not kidding me right?(I wanted to reconfirm…you know…no more drama puhlezzz)
Sheena:Yeah!! I Love you…I can’t cheat myself anymore…your love and your affection…your care…your sacrifices…all touched me…I lost my heart and now it belongs to you….(waiting for me to speak up)
Me:………………………
Sheena:Say something
Me:Sheena thank you!! I love you too….you kept my trust alive and my belief…that love never dies…
Sheena:I was thinking all night what to say now.i thought ten times because I didn’t want to repeat which I did to you. you are the best guy I could ever have. i never thought thay I was beautiful but your love made me realize that yeah I am beautiful…there is a heart which loves me more than anyone else and which only beats for me. The love which never changed, the heart which waited for my love for 9 months. The love which might have started in a fake world but you made me realize how real relation are made in the fake world. i was confused after meeting you that is it the real love or the fake love?...if I really love you or I just like the text which you post me there at facebook.do I really love you or I just love the care you have for me?....you wait at facebook for me the whole day.you waited for me so long.i felt really awkward but is it love or not I didn’t know .i tried to ignore you but I was a fool that I never knew that it was not you whom I was trying to ignore but i was ignoring myself.
Me:…………quite (emotional….touching words…..i thought that she never felt what I feel…but I was wrong)
Sheena:rohit I just want to say something?....
Me:still quite.
Sheena: Are you there? (Stupid girl how I can be here….your words made me like I am sliding over the rainbow)
Me: stammered a bit….yeah dear I am here and always here for you.
Sheena:I love you jaanu(at last she used the word jaanu…I remember when earlier we used to talk I always preferred that she call me jaanu)
Me:I love you too!!!
Sheena:But…this was not the only thing I wanted to tell you. I want a promise rohit…I know you won’t deny but then also I want to say(well this is called reverse psychology…this is the polite way of ordering the things...well my ears got straight to hear what is coming next from the surprise package)
Me:Ya sheena go on…u can trust me!! (I said like a polite cow)…
Sheena: If you remember rohit… I told you about my priorities….and studies, parents , career ...(remember the conditions eehhh)
Me:I do remember jaan
Sheena:I want to say that I am sharing you my piece of heart with you…you have also become a big priority for me…and I want to request you that you never cheat on me and never break my trust….It is not only our relation which will get ruined but my life too as my other priorities will also be affected…(she got a point in her talks but it was looking like a warning)
Me:Baby,I can’t promise you this.
Sheena:What??(I think her eyes were wide open after listening this)
Me:yeah baby….i may cheat you but I promise that will surely be unintentional.
Sheena:What you want to say?(she was blank)
Me:Well if god ever cheated with me and took my life so never complain that I never told you about it.(wah!!! I hit a four…that I thought)
Sheena:stupid….idiot…donkey…dogi…(well great combination of animals and qualities)…..you and your dialogues…I hate useless dialogues…and when you are my love don’t you ever try to cheat with your life too…
Me: yeah sweetheart never ever (I smiled a bit)
Sheena:Okie fine bye for now!!(she said bye…and my heart was saying why…I wanted to cease every moment of this conversation)
Me:Come on!! Why are you in hurry?
Sheena:I have somework…but will call you again(she was about to hung up)
Me:Wait!!! When we are meeting?
Sheena:Soon(that was good but still doubtful…soon is indefinite unit and I wanted to meet her as soon as possible as I wanted to see this time that was it really what I expected or maybe she was still confused and would kick my love once again)
Me:No yaar tell me the date (I asked her in firm voice)
Sheena: day after tomorrow same place…okie(I don’t know why she chose the same place…as I was hating that place…but I know if love do exist then I would win this time)
Me:Done!! I love you sheena!! (with the hope that history would not repeat itself once again)
Sheena:byez
Well from that moment I promised myself to leave smoking as I wanted to live and spend my whole life with my love and thanked god for the beautiful call from her side.
I got back to my house…mom screamed on me as i was late but all the colours came back into my life…the same things which happened when she called me up first time and when she told me that she really loves me.i opened my facebook and I felt really happy and proud to see my status as committed as it was not fake but a true one.the comment congratulations which I had got was now in effect and after reading it I felt really happy.
Some people say that it better to be single. We don’t want any trouble in our life but they can never feel the love, the pleasure of living for someone, to feel for someone…to feel complete. Love is the biggest addiction more than any other addiction in this world. Some might think that love can only give pain to us but those cowards never knew what it takes to make this pain a real pleasure.
Half of my day was left….and a night and a day more…I was waiting for day after..as this time too I carried the same feelings for her, same love for her but there is one more thing added to it that is ‘FEAR’. the fear of losing her once again. The fear that I will get hurt once again. the fear that a depression may come over my soul and I don’t know for how much time it will affect me .the fear of misjudging her love and these words tensed me once again but I took a decision that if this time she did same with me then I will let her go..If she will try to contact me once again I will never pick her call…I will change my number..i will never leave my cigarette addiction…and most importantly I will never fall in love once again.
These thoughts and decisions were rigid and more stronger than any decision of my life.I know I would suffer but I said to myself ‘if you never took a risk in your life then the life would be boring’.
I have a day more to spend so I thought I will go to college tomorrow as my love don’t like my habit of bunking classes and face the Dracula you know of whom I am talking about :P
I called ankit and ask him to come in the evening tomorrow.he replied “yeah bro that will be great as my mother was saying to me that you came for rohit’s sister marriage then why you are sitting idle in the home”. we laughed.
Then I called gaurav and told him that I will be coming for the class tomorrow . But he was trying to scared me more that Dracula was asking for me today too :x…but he never knew that what happened with me today will overcome everything.
Next day as usual the classes went on . God was giving me indication that all the things are in your way. As my HOD didn’t react over my excuse of leaves which I took and he signed all the leaves right away.
In the evening,ankit came and he ask me to go for smoke but I denied his offer.he was shocked and surprised he asked me what happened I said to him “I gave promise to someone and that promise has to be kept.this is the test of my real love and loyalty towards her love and if I cant stick to this small promise then in reality I am not a loyal lover too”…he replied “hmmm…whats the story?”
Well I got to tell him everything so I gave a quick review of what was happening between me and sheena.and told him that i was going to meet her tomorrow .he wished me luck and asked me to call him after I come back after meeting her.
She called up at night to make sure that we were meeting at same place and at the same time.we had some romantic conversation too or one sided romantic conversation as she was not really good at it.
Our love need a Seal of love ‘KISS’ which will officially bond our love and will act like adhesive between our sensitive relation. For now I went for the sleep and went to wonderland of my dreamgirl.
Next morning………………………………
To be continued….
What happen next?
If sheena was playing any game with rohit once again?
If sheena really loves rohit?
If rohit will get what he want?
If they will have their first kiss?
If rohit will come back happily or will come back sad?
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A beautiful Joke
“Good Morning” my talking machine... “How are you?”… “Hey buddy…I need good news from you today…like you did last time”…you must be wondering to whom I was talking in this early morning. Well I was buttering my phone. You know it was hard days for him too. He might need vacations like I do. The first thing I think in the morning is not what I have to do today or what not to do? or what to study and what not to study?...if mom will scream at me or not?...or mom will serve me tea or coffee..The first thing which runs down into my mind is the awesome runner….’Sheena’ . But today the thing is not her face which I was reminding but I was curious to know the answer of my Cinderella.
I got a call from solanki to bring notes of some fluid mechanics. I assure him like a borrower who took a large loan and will surely pay him on time but today I have different plans. I thought to bunk my all the classes of my college and wait for my angel’s call. I know my head of department will scream in the class like gorilla that “if I really want to be a good engineer or not” but I thought is better to be a good lover rather than to become a bad engineer. At least, I will get placed in my sweetheart’s heart and to get placed in a good company is like to find a needle in quick sand. So I called solanki once again and told him that I will be not coming today and he replied “Bloody devdas, HOD sir will kick your ass for sure and you will forget all the love you have in your heart. And I just replied him “Brother, will you also join me to the club”…he replied “huh, Fuck you man!!”…. and I just replied ...“hahahahaha”….I think I was not in my senses on that day the happiness she gave me last night ,I know it is still doubt full but at least it has some hope. I saw a movie called ‘the shawshank redemption’ the motive of the movie and the best dialogue I ever listen and which was appropriate in my present condition was this “Hope is the good thing…may be the best of the things and no good thing ever dies”….these are the golden words and which I always follow.
I went for a bath...Took breakfast…wore my amazing uniform which always looks so tacky and told my mother that I will be late and gave a reason in support that may be our sir would be taking extra class. I kicked my bike and went to pool club and searched for someone to accompany me till I get the call from the best girl of my life. But you know after Sheena, the one I praise a lot are my friends. It was my good luck that my friend ankit Sharma just called me up “hey rohit…how are you man?!!”…I replied “fine bro”… “Very fine”…. “How you doing?”....he replied “bro!! I am back in town and looking forward to meet you”…I replied “what...you are in the town in your mid semester”.... “yeah!! Brother…a tragedy occurred and I got to discuss with you urgently”…I replied “well brother I am there at pool club and you know where it is right?” he replied “yes bro I know? …but brother I want to meet you alone and talk for while”…I replied “I am all alone brother?”…he replied “huh you are at pool club all alone”… “Are you fine?”….I want to say brother I am all fine and…I am just flying :D….but I replied “yeah,I am fine now…and don’t waste time bro , come to the club as soon as possible”….he replied “in 5 minutes” beep beep beep…
I know ankit Sharma’s 5 mins…at least an hour…as he always used to get ready before going out to meet anyone like girls do. So he came after his well known ankit’s 5 minutes hour as he entered we shook hands. So I asked him what is the matter?...he started “brother, I got suspended as I had beaten my hostel guard after drinking 9 pegs of royal stag whiskey?...I exclaimed “what the fuck,man 9 pegs”.. “yeah, and I told my parents that I came back as rohit’s sister is getting married and he is alone so I got to help him”…so I really got to meet you and tell you this so that you don’t spit in front of my mother”….I replied with a combination of anger and humor “great bro, you are awesome”….he asked me “why did you say this?”…. “Man!! Firstly after 9 pegs you beat the guard at the hostel is pretty unbelievable .secondly “what a stupid reason you gave your mother is big add on”:P….we both laughed then...
Well but he is not the only one who is passing with the tragedy. So he asked me “how come you are here at the pool club alone?”….his question was straight but to answer him straight will make me to tell him about sheena .so I thought that I should cut if off as if to escape from policeman when they try to stop you at the chaurahas for cutting your chalans(fine).so I replied him “nothing like that bro,it’s just I want to go to college and my friend wanted to attend so I bunked the classes alone”…he found it an awkward reason and I could truly feel it by seeing each and every expression of his face. It was like ordering a pastry and the shopkeeper asking that do you prefer hot or cold and you can see the expression on the buyer’s face :\ …..but as he is really a good friend of mine…he judged me…he said…something going in your mind…if you don’t want to tell its okie…but I know something fishy in your acts…I replied…”brother!! Fine I will tell you everything just wait for today…I will definitely share about the stuff…he said “okie!! Brother…never mind”….that is the greatest quality he has ,i.e.,to understand the things and circumstances…I hope this habit might get transferred to her too…so that she understand…what I carry for her…what I have in my mind and what I have in my heart….my soul is nothing without the love she gave to me….the affection I have for her….I was getting tensed and nervous the hope and expectation she created in my life...making it more sensitive…I was thinking…all this…next moment ankit shoot me “hey man!! Where you lost?”…..I said “sorry man!! Let have some sutta…I thought that smoking will kill my negative thoughts…and moreover, kill the time…till the time I wait for the call from my dreamgirl…
So ankit and me went out…and asked for 2 cigarettes to panwala bhaiya….panwala bhaiya replied “bhaiya aajkal aate nahi aap”(sir you don’t come often here)…he was seeing in eagerness …I replied “bhaiya…now you will be seeing me often may be from tomorrow.or .You will not find me here” . I said to myself “may be you find me here only” :’(…well sheena’s call was like a call from god now…by listening my words…ankit curiosity took the highest level…like he might get a leaked exam paper from me…. “Something happened really serious with you”….he exclaimed. I was quite and did not say a word.
We had some smoke and a light conversation about the school time about our physics teacher “sardar” to whom we call ‘popa’ and also discussed about the slaps of our mathematics teacher mrs.archana….oh god second name of…evil...also discussed about our chemistry teacher udita…..who was really hot…and amazed to know that she won the title of mrs.india…ankit added... “bhai she really had that spark…trust me”….and we both laughed on this gag….
Time passed…it was 2 pm now…he said “man!! Are you going to spend all day over here”…I replied “you want to go man then you are free to go”….ankit made a face like that of the girl which give glance like when boyfriend ask for a breakoff…...he replied “don’t get annoyed brother I am with you”…now I was thinking how to get rid of him…as I wanted to attend her call alone. I said very calmly like that of telesales which replies always in a smooth behavior like “sir never mind I will give you call later..thank you”….so I said him “hey brother nothing intentional…its okie bro I have some work…I will catch you tomorrow and tell you the story which you are eager to know”…he smiled and took leave…
I sat over the stairs of my pool club…took a cigarette..and smoking…I know many girls…who are my readers might not liking this…I am sorry but…smoking acts like an adhesive to a broken heart…
My phone started ringing and the display showed my mom’s number… i think mom usually called me this time…for the usual enquiry about me that where I am…and when I will be back…I thought for a while and hit the red button…man!! I said to myself what you did…asshole…you hit the red button….it’s your mom idiot….i got panicked as I never did this…sheena was making me doing all this…waiting for her call made me more impatient now…. Thank god mom didn’t called me once again…mom might thought I am there in the class…and never know…I am a devdas ….
Hmmm waiting and waiting…..smoking and smoking….and here it goes…tring tring tring…my god just called me up….the rings of my mobile phone sounding sweeter then the bells of the Christmas…I picked up her call “hey sheena…how’s you I am glad to receive your call”…she replied “I will call you in 5 minutes”…beep beep beep…I said to myself “fuck”….this act of her made me think more and more now….she left me so nervous now…she made me so helpless now…now negative thoughts start punching my brain and very badly.
1) Why she did this?
2) Is it NO?
3) She is doing some drama I think OR…?
4) She loves me I know that OR….?
5) She respects my feelings for her OR…?
6) Did her parents love will overcome my love?
7) She just called me to say the same thing that we should be friends only
8) She called me up to say ‘yes’ to shweta?
9) She called me up to say forget me?
A big Postive and only reaction…which overcoming all my questions was that…
“I love you rohit”…awesome :D
I think her clock ‘s 5 mins were equal to 50 mins as she had not called me yet and half an hour was already over…
After 50th minute got over.my Christmas arrived once again…I prayed for second and received her call…so here I go…I am going to describe our conversation along with simultaneous thoughts that were running inside my mind.
Sheena:hello!! (she was looking so normal and smooth…indication: there is something fishy in her mind…not good for me)
Me:hi!!... (normal to show…that nothing happening it was a just a simple conversation)
Sheena:Hows you? (I think she was just practicing her basics of conversation with me)
Me:I am fine sheena (fake smile…but I can’t let her know…that I am going mad for her)
Sheena:so? (Behaving like this is our usual talk)
Me :So you got to tell me something isn’t it?(I erupted like a volcano…u know…my condition was like a rolling egg….which could break any moment)
Sheena:yeah!! Really is there something special? (she was sounding naughty…it was good indication as per my side…as being naughty means something light…but she was killing me…if she is really playing a game)
Me:Come on sheena!! You know what I am talking about? (It’s looking like I am saying…I beg you…please say…don’t be so mean)
Sheena:I have no idea?(idea…I want to make abhishek bachan to say lines for me that ‘Get idea’ .)
Me:If you are kidding with me or you really forgot about the last night?(well I ask her straight)
Sheena:you didn’t went to your college today? You don’t have class today?(she asked a very ridiculous question at this moment…she was cutting our current point…and I was hating her for this…why is she doing this with me?...i was not liking it)
Me:yaar…what is happening with you?...i bunked my classes…will you please tell me now about your decision?(my condition was now BLANK)
Sheena:you bunked your classes….my god?...i dont like any irresponsible guy….and never expect from you to do this…you are my….(she stopped…while saying the next word…it was like running your bike with 100km per hour speed…and by next moment you find a red traffic signal )
Me:I am sorry?(I said as I want to listen the next word at which she stopped….she thought I said sorry as I bunked classes :P )
Sheena: Its okie…but please never do this…please..(she was really calm and sweet…looking so cute…man!! Lovely girl really)
Me:you said “never expect from you to do this…you are my….”…you are my what????.... :O (my expectation, my curiosity and my ears listening power was now at the highest volume)
Sheena:Boyfriend!!! She smiled (her smile made me realize that all the buds of my life just turned into flower)
Me:you are not kidding me right?(I wanted to reconfirm…you know…no more drama puhlezzz)
Sheena:Yeah!! I Love you…I can’t cheat myself anymore…your love and your affection…your care…your sacrifices…all touched me…I lost my heart and now it belongs to you….(waiting for me to speak up)
Me:………………………
Sheena:Say something
Me:Sheena thank you!! I love you too….you kept my trust alive and my belief…that love never dies…
Sheena:I was thinking all night what to say now.i thought ten times because I didn’t want to repeat which I did to you. you are the best guy I could ever have. i never thought thay I was beautiful but your love made me realize that yeah I am beautiful…there is a heart which loves me more than anyone else and which only beats for me. The love which never changed, the heart which waited for my love for 9 months. The love which might have started in a fake world but you made me realize how real relation are made in the fake world. i was confused after meeting you that is it the real love or the fake love?...if I really love you or I just like the text which you post me there at facebook.do I really love you or I just love the care you have for me?....you wait at facebook for me the whole day.you waited for me so long.i felt really awkward but is it love or not I didn’t know .i tried to ignore you but I was a fool that I never knew that it was not you whom I was trying to ignore but i was ignoring myself.
Me:…………quite (emotional….touching words…..i thought that she never felt what I feel…but I was wrong)
Sheena:rohit I just want to say something?....
Me:still quite.
Sheena: Are you there? (Stupid girl how I can be here….your words made me like I am sliding over the rainbow)
Me: stammered a bit….yeah dear I am here and always here for you.
Sheena:I love you jaanu(at last she used the word jaanu…I remember when earlier we used to talk I always preferred that she call me jaanu)
Me:I love you too!!!
Sheena:But…this was not the only thing I wanted to tell you. I want a promise rohit…I know you won’t deny but then also I want to say(well this is called reverse psychology…this is the polite way of ordering the things...well my ears got straight to hear what is coming next from the surprise package)
Me:Ya sheena go on…u can trust me!! (I said like a polite cow)…
Sheena: If you remember rohit… I told you about my priorities….and studies, parents , career ...(remember the conditions eehhh)
Me:I do remember jaan
Sheena:I want to say that I am sharing you my piece of heart with you…you have also become a big priority for me…and I want to request you that you never cheat on me and never break my trust….It is not only our relation which will get ruined but my life too as my other priorities will also be affected…(she got a point in her talks but it was looking like a warning)
Me:Baby,I can’t promise you this.
Sheena:What??(I think her eyes were wide open after listening this)
Me:yeah baby….i may cheat you but I promise that will surely be unintentional.
Sheena:What you want to say?(she was blank)
Me:Well if god ever cheated with me and took my life so never complain that I never told you about it.(wah!!! I hit a four…that I thought)
Sheena:stupid….idiot…donkey…dogi…(well great combination of animals and qualities)…..you and your dialogues…I hate useless dialogues…and when you are my love don’t you ever try to cheat with your life too…
Me: yeah sweetheart never ever (I smiled a bit)
Sheena:Okie fine bye for now!!(she said bye…and my heart was saying why…I wanted to cease every moment of this conversation)
Me:Come on!! Why are you in hurry?
Sheena:I have somework…but will call you again(she was about to hung up)
Me:Wait!!! When we are meeting?
Sheena:Soon(that was good but still doubtful…soon is indefinite unit and I wanted to meet her as soon as possible as I wanted to see this time that was it really what I expected or maybe she was still confused and would kick my love once again)
Me:No yaar tell me the date (I asked her in firm voice)
Sheena: day after tomorrow same place…okie(I don’t know why she chose the same place…as I was hating that place…but I know if love do exist then I would win this time)
Me:Done!! I love you sheena!! (with the hope that history would not repeat itself once again)
Sheena:byez
Well from that moment I promised myself to leave smoking as I wanted to live and spend my whole life with my love and thanked god for the beautiful call from her side.
I got back to my house…mom screamed on me as i was late but all the colours came back into my life…the same things which happened when she called me up first time and when she told me that she really loves me.i opened my facebook and I felt really happy and proud to see my status as committed as it was not fake but a true one.the comment congratulations which I had got was now in effect and after reading it I felt really happy.
Some people say that it better to be single. We don’t want any trouble in our life but they can never feel the love, the pleasure of living for someone, to feel for someone…to feel complete. Love is the biggest addiction more than any other addiction in this world. Some might think that love can only give pain to us but those cowards never knew what it takes to make this pain a real pleasure.
Half of my day was left….and a night and a day more…I was waiting for day after..as this time too I carried the same feelings for her, same love for her but there is one more thing added to it that is ‘FEAR’. the fear of losing her once again. The fear that I will get hurt once again. the fear that a depression may come over my soul and I don’t know for how much time it will affect me .the fear of misjudging her love and these words tensed me once again but I took a decision that if this time she did same with me then I will let her go..If she will try to contact me once again I will never pick her call…I will change my number..i will never leave my cigarette addiction…and most importantly I will never fall in love once again.
These thoughts and decisions were rigid and more stronger than any decision of my life.I know I would suffer but I said to myself ‘if you never took a risk in your life then the life would be boring’.
I have a day more to spend so I thought I will go to college tomorrow as my love don’t like my habit of bunking classes and face the Dracula you know of whom I am talking about :P
I called ankit and ask him to come in the evening tomorrow.he replied “yeah bro that will be great as my mother was saying to me that you came for rohit’s sister marriage then why you are sitting idle in the home”. we laughed.
Then I called gaurav and told him that I will be coming for the class tomorrow . But he was trying to scared me more that Dracula was asking for me today too :x…but he never knew that what happened with me today will overcome everything.
Next day as usual the classes went on . God was giving me indication that all the things are in your way. As my HOD didn’t react over my excuse of leaves which I took and he signed all the leaves right away.
In the evening,ankit came and he ask me to go for smoke but I denied his offer.he was shocked and surprised he asked me what happened I said to him “I gave promise to someone and that promise has to be kept.this is the test of my real love and loyalty towards her love and if I cant stick to this small promise then in reality I am not a loyal lover too”…he replied “hmmm…whats the story?”
Well I got to tell him everything so I gave a quick review of what was happening between me and sheena.and told him that i was going to meet her tomorrow .he wished me luck and asked me to call him after I come back after meeting her.
She called up at night to make sure that we were meeting at same place and at the same time.we had some romantic conversation too or one sided romantic conversation as she was not really good at it.
Our love need a Seal of love ‘KISS’ which will officially bond our love and will act like adhesive between our sensitive relation. For now I went for the sleep and went to wonderland of my dreamgirl.
Next morning………………………………
To be continued….
What happen next?
If sheena was playing any game with rohit once again?
If sheena really loves rohit?
If rohit will get what he want?
If they will have their first kiss?
If rohit will come back happily or will come back sad?
Want to know the answers…keep waiting for my next chapter…I promise I will write it as soon as possible…keep on giving your feedbacks…and I am sorry i am publishing this chapter after so long…
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